I'm not obsessed with bugs, but I do create some with beads, the winged kind and apparently I'm not the only one intrigued by these winged beauties. I have an order for four more dragonflies this week. All for the Dana that received the dragonfly by mistake, for her daughters/granddaughters in memory of her mother. What an honor! I feel the pressure tho, to make them perfectly.. I made the first one without a hitch So I'm hoping they all will be this easy, maybe starting to get into a groove with them, little easier each time. I'm always excited to get them finished and take them out into the sun to see them sparkle. I'll post each one here as I get them created so whoever reads can see that I really am obsessed with bugs! Just kidding, I'm not, Really! I like to make people happy, and i think this beauty should do the trick.
It's been a really stressful week, with dragonflies to make and no crystals the right size or color. The flowers for my daughter's wedding still not made, only a few petals poke out of the box of supplies. I hope I can even put those petals together when i do get them all made. This is my first experience with French beaded flowers. I will say WHOA! That is a lotta seed beads! I bet I have bought at least 600 grams or more in total, not to mention the wire and the stem wires and beads for sprays. This has turned into a huge project, one little wedding bouquet. Which has to be beautiful because it's for my daughter, who, by the way, isn't too happy with me right now.... I can't please everybody all the time,and this time I really didn't have any choice. I was hired to do a make-ready for a prominent man of the community. (A make-ready is a where you clean a house after someone's moved out to make it ready for the new owner..for those of you who didn't know.) He used to be the mayor here and you really don't want to get a bad rap with somebody like that. It's bad for business to put a customer off anyway, any customer, but especially not somebody that influential. It paid a good price too and I needed the money. I told her several times, over several days, that I had to do this job. She had been planning to go to a conference with my mom this week and expected me to keep the girls. She had already paid for it in advance, which I totally understood but she wasn't hearing me when I told her I couldn't keep putting this job off. I put it of three days, she still didn't make any other arrangements. I finally had to put my foot down and refuse to keep them so I could do the job. Now I'm in the doghouse with her, but I did give her fair warning, she just didn't take me seriously, I guess.. Nobody ever does in my family because I'm always talking so much I think they've learned to tune me out :) I feel really bad but I couldn't go against the will of my Dad, there's just no telling Tom no, not for me, they can do it, but for some reason, I cannot. And I understood his reason anyway, this was a very important customer. Then Mom got sick and neither one of them could go. Then I got sick and then- Tom got sick! OMG! Really? So sick and stressed is the story for me today. I would never intentionally do something to hurt my daughter, Now that I am sober, I sometimes feel overwhelmed with the anxiety of trying to make it all right and keep everybody happy. "just ain't gonna happen.." as my sister would say. Maybe she will forgive me, maybe she won't. But I'll not let that stop me from making her flowers perfect! The house took me two days to finish, it was a HUGE house, you could fit four or five of my house inside it. It wasn't dirty, but I still had to go through the motions, I still had to wipe everything down- cabinets, drawers, baseboards.. ceiling fans, toilets, sinks, tubs, showers. I'm sick too, so maybe not as speedy as I should have been. Or maybe I'm just getting old, I am pushing 40 here, losing my touch? Maybe, but I did get it done, nonetheless. And I got paid so I can buy more friggin seed beads! Just kidding, I think I have enough now, but just in case I run out, I'll have some cash in stash. Luckily for the dragonflies too, because i didn't have any crystals the right size or colors she wanted. I will be more careful to keep sizes other than 4mm in stock from now on. I was so stressed out I forgot to pay my phone bill and it was turned off last night. ( I wondered why it wasn't ringing.. or nobody had texted..) So there went another $40, yea, I am lucky that job came along, because I don't have much of an income right now. And I don't expect to get rich selling dragonflies, but you never know.. I do plan on entering a beading contest in Feburary, I'll post more about that when I get everything that's on my plate now finished up.Let's see, #1 Dragonflies, three more of them. #2 Jesi's wedding bouquet flowers. #3 Mom's birthday necklace, which was in July, and will now be her Christmas present because just can't seem to find time! #4 Beading Contest, and somewhere in between all of that another necklace for Ma, this one with bead embroidery, something else I've never done before. I will post about all of it from time to time as well as other going's on in my crazy life! So check back to see what bug I'm obsessed with next! Ha Ha! Or who's mad at Andrea this week, that would be a good one. You guys will see how crazy I am just trying to keep the peace! Just trying to keep the peace with my son with Asperger's isn't enough, ya know? Look for dragonflies to be buzzing in the next few days Ok I'm going to stop talking now really My family knows it's not true, and so will you! Good nite!
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I Am Andrea Diane Epperson
I am a Mom, a Daughter, MeMe (Grandmother, but don't call me one), a friend, cat lover, jewelry maker, & household goods packer. I am Mom to a married 20 year old Daughter, Jesi Winter who is Mom to 2 precious little girls, Lilica 2 years, and Jasmine 6 months. I am also a Mom to a 6 year old little boy, Andrew James. Andrew has a form of autism called Aspergers syndrome characterized by super-sensitivity to his environment and an inability to tolerate loud noises or lots of noise and crowds. Its sort of like living with a ticking time bomb, never knowing what will set him off; A smell, taste, a toy 'misbehaving'. All of the events of his day must be calculated carefully as he cannot cope with change the way another child might. He has improved greatly, for instance he was very terrified of the vacuum cleaner and now he volunteers to vacuum messes all the time. Small steps like this are huge milestones in Andrew's development and adjustment to daily life. Although his form of Autism is especially difficult to handle because of the sheer raw nerves and the meltdowns are simply awful, the up side is he loves unconditionally and is completely genuine. There are no facades for him, no little white lies, because he is incapable of lying. He is a handful, to say the least, but a pure joy to know and love. Archives
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